17 October, 2006

Cars part 3 (or why I'm upset)

One


Ok, common sense *now* tells me to leave the handbrake on *and* leave the car in gear. In case one of the two fail. I did neither of the two so there is no one else to blame. Thank you Lisa for picking the car up so the police didn't have it towed away at my expense. And so far, whoever's car I hit haven't made a complaint. I assume it was a car judging by the size of the dint. I've pulled the panel back out so it doesn't rub against the wheel (unless I try and go around corners fast, which is half the fun of my car) so it's still driveable. But it's not funable as it's not perfect and it does rub against the wheel (and make a horrrible noise) when I go around right hand corners quickly. So on top of the 1600 it just cost to get the car back to working thanks to my own stupidity I now have even more to pay out. Pretty certain it's two panels so there's ~1000 more to pay. And just for the record, I normally can take teasing about the stupid things I've done and I don't mind making a fool of myself. If you tease me about this I will not appreciate it. Neither do I want sympathy. I just want to get on with it, get it fixed and pretend it never happened.

Two


Work. I have been extended but I'm still not permanent. And not likely to be I don't think. I don't enjoy my job and I don't even have very much to do. I get no direction from either my manager or my supervisor and both seem to ignore any emails I send asking for direction. As the bottom person in the unit I shouldn't be having to find jobs for myself, someone higher then me should know what's going on. One of them doesn't care and the other one couldn't give a shit. Makes the whole thing un-fulfilling. So I've got to write some job applications now.

Three


Women. I have been chasing this girl for a while. She has told me that I'm nice, attractive and she admires my values. So she's getting back together with her ex who lied to her to get her to sleep with him and then promptly broke up with her. What the fuck is up with that? Can someone please tell me the point of being nice to people when they go and do stupid things like that? So I'm just going to give up on women because they obviously don't think I have what they want, and they seem to want someone to abuse them. Since that's not me, I'll never get a look in. And that's not an isolated case.

The rest


All that being said, it's not that bad really. It could be much worse and I know several people who are in worse situations, and several hundred million who I don't know who are definitely worse off. From my point of view, things are pretty crappy and the last time I was in a somewhat similar situation I fell completely off the rails. At least I'm handling it better this time.

And no, I don't want to talk about it which is why comments are turned off. But to save people asking what's wrong, I've decided to blog so people know. So know you all know why I'm not happy right now. Maybe later when I feel like it.